The A Word
I'm stuck in a fog of debilitating doubt. Endless worry seizing my every waking moment in a silent torment I've come to expect daily. Sometimes it's subtle, other times it's so loud I can barely hear anything else or focus clearly. The logical part of my brain fights with my demons, these tormentors of mine who find great pleasure in eating at me. These demons who feast on doubt. They produce the overthinking emotional torture that I can never seem to escape. Without constant reassurance from those I love, I feel like I'm failing them. The big A . The shapeshifter of mental disorders. Showing up in various ways like overthinking, obsessive worry, anxiousness, panicky feelings, and sometimes, depression. It's never easy juggling this circus act of issues, especially when reaching out makes you feel like a burden to those you love. Putting on a mask to hide the turmoil you're facing in your mind - the battlefield of logical and illogical thinking. I apologize...